Departure

The doubt & the totter.. no sign of an anchor
The hollowness of it cripples me
How does one measure worthlessness..?..
Long is the shadow cast and black is the curtain drawn
Dread swells up in the mire yonder
Waiting.

"One step at-a-time, my lovely, make no mistake
 The rut you have dug, to me it will take."

A life of ineptitude
Yet the stride feels firm now
Advancing towards the goal
Full of purpose, no space for  doubt, no time to totter

The qualities that eluded me in life
Join me in the procession
Determination befriends, so does clarity
Courage is by my side
My focus is sharp & peace promises to be the guide...
Fear slips away, the pettiness of it all becomes a mockery..

The act did fail, and the world did witness the fading
But I had stood there and thought--
For once,uncluttered
For once let me complete a plan
For once let me feel better

The tread just reaches..
And I thank thee for your benevolence
I did achieve something after all..
I did complete the journey..
       in terms I operated..I did not fail I did not falter I had walked all along
No distraction broke me, No soul saved me
It's I, my lord who mended myself
Though the force came at the close..
But it did  come.

Will you remember me for dying well?